my life: cheer. the end?

recently the question has arose in my head if i even want to try out for warren cheer next year. i know i would regret it, but also it could be the greatest things for me. i know i would miss the football and basketball games, THE COMPETITIONS, the homecoming routine, the cheer parties and just the feel of it since its what ive always done. but then again i dont want to do it because of all the stress and work and time it takes. i want to be able to have a LIFE my senior year. also it is taking a complete toll on my body and its costing money for my parents with physical therapy and i hate even going to that place. i dont know if i have the strength and determination to even put into it anymore. none of my close friends are even on the team except for two so its not like i would be missing anything. all that occurs on the team is drama and i hate hearing about "he did this, and they fucked, and omg i hate her" and being talked about behind my back and hearing people do it to their supposed "friends". i just dont want to be involved in that anymore. people dont understand how much of your life it takes over until you have actually done it every year of your damn life. i say this after every season, but now i actually realize more and more things. do i want to be a part of all the activities that are offered while doing cheerleading for warren or do i want to have a life that is stress free. i dont know. i have yet to make my decision and i probably wont make it until the last minute. but i want anyone who has actually read this whole thing to realize if i do decide to try out, i LOVE cheerleading and i love the program that warren offers to us. if i stick with my gut and continue the sport than i will definitely give it 110% so dont think because i am having these doubts that if im on the team ill slack because that is not true. if i decide to do this, it will be what i do and i will do everything i have these past 3 years. im just really unsure right now because of all the stuff going on in my life right now. but who knows, i dont, so i guess we shall all see what happens!