ooo, how society has changed.

as i am writing this, i am watching 16 & pregnant with my mom. she says by watching this with me it will hopefully drill into my head how i need to continue on a good path during my teenage years. the people on this show are completely redneck or ghetto with only a few exceptions. right now i am watching an episode with two hillbillies, one a junior and one graduated from high school without a job, who have never left their town. he doesnt have a job and only plays video games. the girls mom lets her boyfriend live in her house too. IS THIS A JOKE?!?! what kind of parents do that? i hope my mom sees that this will never happen to me because of the life she has given me and because she isnt an idiot like some of these parents. this show just seems like an entertaining show and like it cant be reality because it is so ridiculous. there are two or three girls in my school that have been pregnant and i think its crazy; dont you want to have a life? oooo goodness, what is the 20th century going to see next?

erratic driving.

i know what everyone says: teenagers cant drive because they just got their license, but this pisses me off. i see so many people on the road that i just want to run over because they do not know how to drive properly or cross streets.

1) i hate how people crossing streets walk so slow. seriously, we have places to go and yes, we are in a car, but that isnt going to help us get there any faster when we are waiting for your asses to cross the street. like seriously, its no more than 25 feet and if you cant run that, then you have some bigger issues.

2) when people drive too slow. the speed limit is there for a reason. seriously! you can go five over with it being safe, but fifteen UNDER is what gets dangerous.

3) sometimes i just want to break the lights of people that dont use their blinkers. why else would you pay the money to have them on the car if you arent even going to use them! if there is a damn road with no turn lane and you slow down to make a turn all of a sudden, how am i supposed to know if you dont turn on your blinker?!?! are you just waiting to get rear ended?

and finally

4) i hate the people that ride of your ass or try to hard to pass you. i know im going 5-10 mph over the speed limit so its not like you need to go any faster. you are just being reckless and obnoxious. going that fast isnt cool with your loud ass annoying engine. like come on, youre wasting your money on that kind of shit when people are starving?! i drive around with busted speakers and im not complaining!

honestly, this might come from me having the WORST road rage ever. actually.... i think i have the worst passenger seat rage too. but honestly, dont give me a reason to have it when you can just follow what you learned in drivers ed. please!

getting asked to prom. (:

so i left my house and was about to leave for kevins when i noticed an envelope and rose on my car starting a scavenger hunt. it said to go to the place we first met and became friends.

this is where i park my car everyday at school and where we first started talking. this envelope said to go where i parked my car the night we went out to eat with a bunch of friends and he asked me out.

this was on the curb by matts house where i parked my car when kevin drove a bunch of us out to eat at culvers and he asked me out. this envelope said to go where we had a really long talk and became even closer.

this was at the park in his neighborhood where we stopped one night after hanging out with friends to have a really long needed talk which brought us even closer. (i went to the wrong park at first. whoops, my bad i dont know the difference between the red and blue park!) this envelope said to go where we had our first kiss.

kevin was standing in the church parking lot by matts house where he first kissed me with the rest of the roses, this sign and taylor swift playing.

best night in a while, but hes lucky i had gas! haha. im so happy he is my boyfriend and im really excited for prom. <3

flashback: gymnastics.

i grew up my whole life doing some type of gymnastics. from ages three till ten i did basic gymnastics and then from ages ten till thirteen i did tramp and tumble. basic gymnastics has the floor, bars, beam and vault and i quit right before i wouldve started to compete. i then joined tramp and tumble because floor exercise is what i enjoyed the most. tramp and tumble includes rod floor, a strip of floor where you complete one tumbling pass, the trampoline, a risen trampoline which you compete a series of flips, and double mini, a smaller trampoline that you run onto and complete two flips and dismount. i quit tramp and tumble because of high school cheer and all the time it takes up. club gymnastics takes up too much time and i figured if i wanted to keep my tumbling i could do high school cheer which wasnt as competitive but kept me involved with school. now that i am having questions about if i want to cheer my senior year, i think to the possibilities of participating in high school gymnastics. the girls are super nice on the gymnastics team and i know they would be very accepting. also i love coach klemm which helps. the thing i think about, though, is what everyone else will think if i leave cheerleading to do gymnastics. would they think im a traitor? would they think im a quiter? i know i shouldnt care nor think about their opinion, but im only human so of course i am going to. i can honestly say im terrified to quit cheerleading to do gymnastics and not even be sure if i would make the team. its a matter of knowing i would definitely be on the cheer team and the mystery if i would make the gymnastics team. people say that i could do gymnastics and succeed very well, but what people dont realize is that having tumbling isnt the only thing you need to succeed in the sport of gymnastics. you need to be able to work the bars, vault and tumble on the beam. sure, you can pick and choose what events you do, but i wouldnt want to just do floor. id have to relearn my skills, which erin mcgaha is willing to help me with, but what if i cant and i already missed my chance to try out for cheer? its a risk, for sure and its something i have to decide soon as cheer tryouts are coming up. i dont even know when they are! if i was really convinced i wanted to cheer then wouldnt i know when they are and exactly what i needed to do for them? ever since the death of my grandpa i have realized that you have to live each day to the fullest and that while im young i need to experience everything that i can, take risks, and see whats out there. i only wish i could hear what he had to say. myself and other people are telling me that i would regret not doing cheer and finishing out my four years in high school doing the sport, but what would i say if i never tried something new and missed out on finding something i really enjoyed. the sport is only a season long which would give me a lot more time to do other things but also means that i would have to take a semester of gym, which sounds like a silly thing to be concerned about, but hey, i hate getting sweaty during school! its a huge decision i have to make, but sometimes i just feel like taking a wild chance and who knows if i will?

my life: cheer. the end?

recently the question has arose in my head if i even want to try out for warren cheer next year. i know i would regret it, but also it could be the greatest things for me. i know i would miss the football and basketball games, THE COMPETITIONS, the homecoming routine, the cheer parties and just the feel of it since its what ive always done. but then again i dont want to do it because of all the stress and work and time it takes. i want to be able to have a LIFE my senior year. also it is taking a complete toll on my body and its costing money for my parents with physical therapy and i hate even going to that place. i dont know if i have the strength and determination to even put into it anymore. none of my close friends are even on the team except for two so its not like i would be missing anything. all that occurs on the team is drama and i hate hearing about "he did this, and they fucked, and omg i hate her" and being talked about behind my back and hearing people do it to their supposed "friends". i just dont want to be involved in that anymore. people dont understand how much of your life it takes over until you have actually done it every year of your damn life. i say this after every season, but now i actually realize more and more things. do i want to be a part of all the activities that are offered while doing cheerleading for warren or do i want to have a life that is stress free. i dont know. i have yet to make my decision and i probably wont make it until the last minute. but i want anyone who has actually read this whole thing to realize if i do decide to try out, i LOVE cheerleading and i love the program that warren offers to us. if i stick with my gut and continue the sport than i will definitely give it 110% so dont think because i am having these doubts that if im on the team ill slack because that is not true. if i decide to do this, it will be what i do and i will do everything i have these past 3 years. im just really unsure right now because of all the stuff going on in my life right now. but who knows, i dont, so i guess we shall all see what happens!